Leaping and LANDING into 4th Dimensional Reality

June 29th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

I find it quite ironic that the last newsletter I published was on February 9, 2011. Five long months ago. It was titled Making the Leap into 4th Dimensional Reality. And, it is quite apparent to the casual, and not so casual observer, that I’ve been lost in space ever since!

Ricocheting between the quicksand of 3rd dimensional reality, and the subtle energies of the 4th dimension, and the ascension energies of the 5th dimension, truly demonstrates that there can be quite a GAP between the leaping and the landing.

How the heck was I supposed to know I was biting off more than I could (comfortably) chew!? It looked exciting and fun at the time, and my Guides were saying “jump in, the water is fine.” Yeah, right!

Well, as they say, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!

Roller Coaster does not begin to describe my journey of the last five months. It has been more like repeated rocket blast-offs only to crash land before reaching orbit, again, again and again. Yet each time I emerged from the crash site an upgraded version of my former self (on the way to becoming my Authentic 5th dimensional Self, I presume!).

Let me take a brief moment to applaud the Spiritual Growth Community members who never (visibly) wavered in their support as they watched me shift, and shift, and shift again, all the while hearing me proclaim with each shift, with certainty, that I had safely landed in new territory. (Watch the bouncing Jennifer!)

Of course it is possible, even probable, that my shifting is not yet complete. After all, I am only now comfortably occupying 4th dimensional reality, and my guides, along with a multitude of sages, seers, and astrologers have been saying for quite some time that life as we know it is over— that the best is yet to come—and that we are absolutely co-creating the future we are evolving into.

The most beautiful thing about this five month journey is how guided, protected and supported I have been by a Legion of Light Beings ranging from my Guardian Angel to more than a few Ascended Masters. These Beings are beaming tremendous love and support to all Light Workers as we wend our way through this very difficult transition into living as 5th dimensional beings.

I, for one, had grown more than weary of all the growing, the changing, the putting one foot in front of the other year after year after year, only to find myself up the proverbial waterway with no visible means of motivation over, and over, and over.

I have been on this journey for more than 20 years, and I can truthfully tell you I had gotten plenty sick of it. Telling me I had signed up for this, and what a privilege it was to be here now to participate in this grand transition, didn’t do one thing to make me feel better! I was certain if I had known how hard it was going to be, I never would have agreed, if in fact, I actually did!

But, like any birthing, once the baby is born, or in this case, the transition made from 3rd to 4th dimension, all memory of the pain and agony has dissolved into pure joy and happiness. At least that is how I feel today, and it has been a long time since I have felt the joy and bliss that comes from knowing who I am, and why I am here.

During these past five months I have known that the Spiritual Growth Community was evolving into a new expression. One of the major shifts I made (certain it was the permanent landing place at the time) was the realization that “spiritual growth” is really nothing more than “becoming conscious,” and there is nothing very mysterious about that. I saw my role shifting into one of making the idea of becoming conscious “mainstream-friendly.”

From that sprang the realization that re-igniting our sixth sense, of which our intuition is a major component, was the new direction. Each time I thought “this is it,” new aspects presented themselves.

So . . . although I know something new is in the offing, I am not quite sure what it is, exactly.

However, there are a couple of things I can say for certain (well as certain as anything can be during these turbulent, unstable times of transformation):

1. I am changing the name of this newsletter to “Awaken Your Intuition & Create the Life You Deserve.”

2. The Spiritual Growth Community is in the process of evolving into being more centered on developing the sixth sense that we are all born with, but most of us shut down early on to fit in.

BOTTOM LINE: We are in a time of extremely rapid change.  We are on the threshold of a new beginning that offers the opportunity to create heaven on earth for ourselves. It is our choice how we progress through this transition. If we choose fear, we will create what we are most afraid of. However, we do have the choice to disengage from the fear-based culture and connect with like-hearted, conscious co-creators, and create a world of peace, harmony and joy for ourselves. From that perspective, the choice is kind of a no-brainer, right?

TIP: We were all born with a fully-functioning sixth sense. For most of us it got shut down early on by being told that what we “saw” and “heard” was “just your imagination.” If you set your intention to reconnect with, and fully develop, your sixth sense, you will be led to exactly the avenues most suited to you to become fully conscious at the 4th and 5th dimensional levels.

P.S. Conscious co-creation generally produces more pleasant results than unconscious co-creation. As they say, if you don’t claim what you want for yourself, the Universe will serve you leftovers. Ugh!

If you’d like support on your journey into 4th and 5th dimensional living, be sure to join us on the 1st and 3rd Wednesday’s Oasis in the Midst of Chaos gatherings at my home in Lodi. Go here for more details.

I’d love to hear what’s going on in your life. Are you getting sick and tired of suffering from anxiety and uncertainty about what is going to happen in your life? What have you tried that has helped relieve the suffering? What have you tried that hasn’t worked?  Click on the comments link below to leave your thoughts, or send me an email: Jennifer@spiritualgrowthcommunity.com

This newsletter is published on the 2nd and 4th Wednesdays of each month. I’ll “see” you in our next newsletter July 13th.

Love and light,

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It’s True, Life As We Know It Is Over, Yay!

May 23rd, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

Well, May 21st has come and gone and we are still here . . . yet the essence of the prediction of the end of the world holds a great deal of truth . . . not that earth is going to explode and the “believers” will be beamed up to heaven . . . but that the way humanity has occupied earth for thousands of years is rapidly on the way out.

Interestingly (to me anyway) is that just about a year ago I had written an article called “The Beginning is Near” (http://www.spiritualgrowthcommunity.com/more-joy/issue47.html ). And interestingly, (to me, again) it was right after I had begun teaching the 6 month course “Awakening Your Light Body.”

So in that vein that article is quite relevant to today since this past Saturday I started that course again with 20 brave souls who are wanting change. And, it was also the day (May 21st) that the end of the world was to take place . . . quite a coincidence considering I had established that course date a year ago.

There are so many wonderful things happening that you will never hear about in mainstream media ( the better to keep the populace afraid and easily manipulated in to buying “security” at the price of freedom.  But then that is another story.)  that will shift us into “heaven on earth.”

If you’d like some good news subscribe to Ode the magazine for Intelligent Optimists. It will open your eyes to the new technologies, like glass highways (Click here: Solar highways. [VIDEO] ) that will generate enough electricity to power the world,  and indoor farms  (http://hubpages.com/hub/Our-latest-venture ) being created in abandoned factories that will supply local food year round, and on and on.

Yes, the end of the world as we know it: dictatorships, pain, misery and suffering for the masses, corporate greed, political shenanigans, blah, blah, blah,  is happening and the new beginning of co-creative partnership among all people is in the birth canal, so to speak! Once we get through the labor pains, we need to nurture it to adulthood, first by believing it is possible, and then tapping into the information channels that report the good news that we can put our attention on.

Oh, BTW, did I mention that the glass highways will use recycled garbage from landfills and the oceans, as a substrate. The heck with buying gold, just start saving your garbage, there will a hot market for it sooner rather than later.


Love and light

Jennifer, your consciousness coach!

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More amazing wonders coming soon!

April 21st, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

Want a peek into the future that is closer than you think? Take a look at this video sent to me by my friend, Celeste Leonetti. It is an amazing preview of what’s to come in how we navigate daily life.


I was thinking about what my guides have been saying that “life as we know it is over, and to not be afraid.”  Now that I am seeing all the technology just on the horizon I get this picture of an angel appearing to a cave dweller telling them that life as they know it is over . . . and the fear the cave dweller might have because of not being able to imagine things like grocery stores so food was always available, central heat and air for physical comfort all year round, cars and planes to travel the world . . . changes that bring more comfort, pleasure, safety and opportunity to thrive!

So the “don’t be afraid” message of my guides is telling us that the best is yet to come, just as it was for the cave dweller.

And yes it is!

Love and light

Jennifer T. Grainger, B.Msc.
Consciousness Coach and Visionary

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Conscious Men Manifesto

April 20th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

Here is a beautiful video called Dear Woman that features Gay Hendricks, co-author of Conscious Loving, and others, apologizing to women for the male gender’s tyranny, abuse, degradation, and disrespect this gender has  shown towards women for thousands of years.

Take a look!


Truly we are seeing a new dawn rising.

The Best Is Yet To Come!

Jennifer Grainger
Consciousness Coach and Visionary

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Making the Leap into 4th Dimensional Reality

February 9th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

Mass consciousness has been stuck in three dimensional reality for centuries. It was easy to manipulate us with fear (of going to hell, mostly) in order to hijack our willingness to do as we were told by those in authority, be it church, state, culture, or what have you. Our desire to avoid punishment and to secure reward was enough to get us to follow the rules.

But something happened in the 1960s . . . a whole generation of young people woke up and decided to question conventional wisdom.  It was common to see “Question Authority” bumper stickers on their flower-power decorated VW buses.

Then in the 1970s Betty Friedan and Gloria Steinem raised the consciousness of women, encouraging them to throw off their subservient role and demand equality. Since then we’ve had 40 years of women developing their masculine side in order to compete in the workplace.

No question there is a new paradigm emerging. The question is . . . will mass consciousness make the leap out of the limits of three dimensional reality that has as its only navigational tools that which the five senses can detect and the rational mind can understand?

Or will the masses be willing to explore the fourth dimensional reality that encompasses the wisdom of the heart, and the knowings of a fully functioning sixth sense?

I think the answer is some will, and some won’t.

It takes courage to suspend the belief in the superiority of the rational mind, while doing what it takes to ignite and develop your sixth sense. It was definitely risky for me twenty years ago to practice following my heart to see where it would lead me. In fact, when faced with a decision that had important consequences I would revert back to relying on my ability to figure things out, not trusting my heart and soul to have input.

It has taken most of these past twenty years for me to ignite, develop and then integrate my sixth sense with my already well-developed five senses, while also creating a harmonious relationship between my head and my heart.

I believe that humanity has been led to this very moment in time when many of us have enough consciousness to make a leap into becoming conscious co-creators with life.

When we have integrated all our senses, and trust our own inner wisdom above any self-appointed outside authority it will be very difficult for those wishing to manipulate us to do so.

So it is no surprise that those who have enjoyed the privileged authority positions are not going to give up without a fight. Their weapon of choice will be as it has always been . . . fear.

Only instead of fear of being burned at the stake, or having one’s head chopped off, it will be fear of terrorists, or losing your job, or your house, or home invasions, or whatever they can come up with to keep you terrified and unable to think clearly.

So for each individual it all boils down to whether one is going to make a leap of faith in the direction of evolution and listen to their own inner-guidance, or be paralyzed with fear and “play it safe,” demanding that “they” (government, corporations, etc.) do something to make their life work.

For months now, my guides have been telling us at our Wednesday night gatherings that the cosmic energies raining down on the planet are dispersing people into their energetically vibratory matching groups. Those who cling to third dimensional reality, that which is limited to what the five senses can detect and the rational mind can understand, and who look outside of themselves for guidance and direction, (think dogmatic religion) will come together in groups.

Those who are willing to do the work to expand their consciousness to include fourth dimensional reality will also come together in groups. The difference is their focus will be on consciously creating communities of people who embrace diversity and intend to live cooperatively. They are influenced by messages of unconditional love, sharing and caring for each other and the planet.

BOTTOM LINE: We are in a time of extremely rapid change. Life as we have known it is all but over. We are on the threshold of a new beginning that offers the opportunity to create heaven on earth for ourselves. It is our choice how we progress through this transition time. If we choose fear, we will create what we are most afraid of. However, we do have the choice to disengage from the fear-based culture and connect with like-hearted conscious co-creators and create a world of peace, harmony and joy for ourselves.  From that perspective, the choice is kind of a no-brainer, right?

TIP: We were all born with a fully functioning sixth sense. For most of us it got shut down early on by being told that what we “saw” and what we “heard” was “just your imagination.” If you set your intention to reconnect with, and develop, your sixth sense, you will be led to exactly the avenues most suited to you to become fully conscious at a fourth dimensional level.

P.S. We will be doing some exercises to strengthen your sixth sense at our 3rd Annual Spring Retreat coming up on Saturday, March 5th. It will be a day to retreat, regroup, replenish, and to gather the strength to take a stand for yourself in ditching old duties, obligations and commitments that bog down your heart’s desire and soul’s journey. This is a day that will go a long way to maximizing your JOY and minimizing struggle in your daily life.

P.P.S. I’d love to hear what’s going on in your life. Are you getting sick and tired of suffering from anxiety and uncertainty about what is going to happen in your life? What have you tried that has helped to relieve the suffering? What have you tried that hasn’t worked?  Leave your comments below. I’d LOVE to hear from you!

Love and light,
Jennifer T. Grainger, B.Msc.
Your Consciousness Coach!

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Change can be messy . . . just ask a caterpillar!

January 27th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

When my spirit guide told me 2011 would be a Year of Clearing accompanied by rapid change, I had no idea what to expect.

Right now I’m sorta feeling like a caterpillar whose spirit guide told her this was the year she’d become a butterfly, but neglected to mention this metamorphoses included the complete disintegration of her caterpillar self into a soupy mush from which her butterfly self would be constructed.

Whoa, baby! Only two weeks ago I’d laid out the new direction I was taking . . . all nice and neat like. Ahhhh . . . it felt really good to have clear direction and plenty of “steam” to carry it out.

Well, you know that joke . . . if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans. Half the logistical stuff I planned is already out the window, and new stuff is emerging!

The big shift for me is to change how I talk about what I do. For the past twenty years I have referred to it as “spiritual growth.” It has been really hard to answer the question “so what do you do” which is why I had not been out in the public arena much.

But that all changed when I had my own consciousness expansion moment at the end of December and realized “spiritual growth” was really nothing more than becoming consciously aware of the reality beyond what our five senses can detect, and learning how to “go with the flow.” (Which is easier said than done, I might add! That old ego is in no hurry to give up control.)

Since then I’m being regularly “downloaded” with ideas of how to take spiritual principles and concepts and wrap them in words that ordinary people like myself can understand. Because if you know my story, I was born with no discernable “psychic gifts” and was a trial for my first mentor, Judy Reis, who would get so exasperated when I’d tell her I didn’t sense anything.

But then, she was not an ordinary person like me, so it was easy for her to see and sense the “unseen.”

I know firsthand what it is like to work at developing your sixth sense when sometimes you are not even sure it exists. When I complained to my guide that it was really hard to put spiritual experiences into words, he  agreed, and then told me that is why I’ve been asked to do it, because I had the capacity to do it, if I would just apply myself.

Alrighty, then . . .

It really made me chuckle when I “got” the analogy that this evolutionary leap humanity is making could be likened to how we upgrade to a more fully featured computer program when we have more powerful computers that can run them! That analogy broke open a whole new world of ways to talk about what I do in ways that “spiritual growth” just didn’t convey.

Here’s the gist of it, so far.

Humanity is evolving out of the old paradigm of three dimensional reality that is limited to what the five senses can detect and the rational mind can understand. We are evolving into the new paradigm that includes conscious awareness of the subtle energies that are invisible to the five senses, but detectable with a fully functioning sixth sense.

So now when people ask what I do I can say “I help people upgrade their personal operating system from 3D to 4D so they can experience more Joy and less struggle in their daily lives.”

Well, it is a start.

I’ll end here because I gotta get back to work translating “spiritual growth” words into “developing a fully functioning sixth sense” words on my Spiritual Growth Community website. You see, one of my plans was to create a whole new website called Becoming Conscious and just start fresh.

Not gonna happen.

I won’t bore you with the details, but suffice it to say, this Spiritual Growth Community website “caterpillar” is going to have to tolerate the messy change process for a while ‘til the Becoming Conscious website “butterfly” is ready to emerge!

BOTTOM LINE: Just as everyone gets wet when the rain falls on them, no one will be untouched by the changes that are upon us. Staying flexible, being willing to change direction at a moments notice, stepping up your meditation practice (or starting one if you don’t have one) to stay connected with guidance is imperative if you want to “surf the chaos and navigate the flow(sm)” of this big shift with more Joy and less struggle.

TIP: All my upcoming classes and events will be focused on developing a fully functioning sixth sense. We will still have plenty of the bliss moments to enjoy, but there will also be some serious education going on to get your sixth sense optimally operating. So stay tuned for new offerings . . . coming soon!

If you have any stories of change that is happening for you and how you are handling it, I’d love to for you to leave a comment below.

Love and light,


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Hyperchange is Here. Get Used To It!

January 17th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

This weekend, on Saturday, at a workshop I was attending designed to make the process of personal and spiritual growth more conscious, I had a massive internal energy shift that left me feeling quite disoriented. I am not able to articulate what actually happened, but it left me stunned and temporarily unable to relate to myself as I have known myself. (Just so you know, this is a good thing!)

This left me in a sort of “put on your own oxygen mask first and then assist others” when it came to fulfilling one of the membership benefits I offer to Spiritual Growth Community members, namely doing a daily energy transmission to them to help them stay aligned with the cosmic energies  of change that are raining down on the planet.

Clearly I was in no shape to do any such thing!

Sometimes when people ask me what I do I will say that I teach people how to “surf the chaos and navigate the flow” of life. Well I guess you could say I encountered a wave that not only knocked me off my surfboard, but sent my surfboard out to sea, while washing me onto the shore!

So for those of you who are Spiritual Growth Community members and have been tracking your daily experiences to be alert to what might be different because you received an energy transmission from me, there were no transmissions on Saturday or Sunday.

But today, I am back on track and reconnected with my guide, Ascended Master Maha Cohan. He has reminded me that trust in the process is the key and that sharing my experience will help others gain trust in their own ability to navigate the massive changes we are going to have to accommodate.

Letting you watch me flounder, and sometimes fall, only to see me get up again, and carry on with Trust in the underlying goodness of life, while Surrendering to the greater good that wants to come into my life as soon as I am willing to let go of what is not bringing me Joy, could give you more courage to trust your own inner guidance.

One of the hardest things during this process this weekend was to not look back. I had to keep reminding myself to keep my focus on staying open to the new possibilities that are in this very moment taking shape to further my growth, expand my Joy and increase my consciousness.

So for you Community members, I am back on track with my energy transmissions. This morning at around 7:30 I transmitted to each of you from the Gridwork of Light. This is a “playground” of sorts where souls dedicated to bringing light to earth congregate. I joined in a light game where I transmitted light to the Gridwork and received light back. Very fun! I transmitted to each of you that energy of exhilaration of Joy and the realization that life is a journey and the place to enjoy it is in the moment, not “saving it” for when you get “there”. (Sorry, kiddies, there is no tooth fairy, and there is no “there!”)

Those of you who are light body graduates will be learning more about the Gridwork of Light as we go forward in that exploration.

Stay courageous and brave during this time of hyperchange. As my guide, Ascended Master Maha Cohan, has repeatedly told us, there is no value in being afraid. Fear disconnects us from our inner wisdom and tends to create more of what we don’t want. We must keep seeing all of this as an adventure into great, new ways of being that will be way more joyful than we could possibly imagine from where we are today.

Lots more changes coming soon . . . stay tuned!

Wishing you many blessings on your journey, I remain yours . . .

In love and light,


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It Was a Slap Myself on the Forehead Moment!

January 13th, 2011 by Jennifer Grainger

I had one of those “slap myself on the forehead” moments a few months ago when I realized that “spiritual growth” is nothing more than the process of becoming conscious of greater levels of awareness.

As an aside, have you ever noticed that even little children will slap their foreheads when they have a “DUH!” moment? I think it is an instinctive gesture to open our “third eye” (the 6th chakra) so we can see more clearly.

Anyway, I’ve known for quite a while that humanity is in the process of making a HUGE evolutionary leap. Until now I was only able to speak about it in a sort of mysterious way using terms like chakra and third eye.

It reminds me of when I got my first computer in 1984. It was a whole new world with its own vocabulary and a literal black-box mysteriousness. I would type something, see it on the monitor, click save, and have no idea where it “went.” I had to develop new neural pathways in my brain to understand how to work with this new technology.

Well, the same type of thing is happening now for us homo sapiens. We are evolving out of the 3 dimensional reality that is limited to what the five senses can detect and the rational mind can understand, into fourth dimensional reality that has at its foundation a fully functioning sixth sense. We have to develop new neural pathways in our brains to understand how to work with the 4D subtle energies that make up our very existence.

So that is what I have been doing for the last twenty-one years, becoming conscious of the 4D reality and helping others along the way. I just didn’t know how to talk about it in a way that “ordinary” people like me could understand, because I didn’t understand it either. I was just doing it.

My understanding of how simple (but not easy) all of this really is has come to me in bits and pieces over the last few months. I’ve been told by my spirit guides that 2011 is the Year of Clearing. And that it will go faster than 2010 (which seems impossible), but it is going to go faster so that we can no longer hold onto things that are holding us back from being liberated from the limited and limiting perspective of 3D reality.

As I have written about before, this is a Shift or Die! moment in history. The 3D world is disintegrating in order to make way for 4D reality, much as the acorn disintegrates to grow into the mighty oak. The “death” of the acorn is the “birth” of the oak.

There are big changes ahead for all of us. The quicker we can let go of what wants to leave our lives the faster we can shift into the new.

Here is what is new for me (so far):

I’ve changed my “title” from Spiritual Growth Coach and Mentor to Consciousness Coach.

My new “tag line” is Upgrading Your Personal Operating System from 3D to 4D.

Beginning February 1st, I will be doing a free, weekly, live video broadcast on Mondays at 5pm Pacific Time on uStream.tv called: “Becoming Conscious – Live @ 5”. You can watch it on your computer and interact via chat. I will be presenting information designed to expand your consciousness to access greater levels of awareness that you are currently unaware of.  It will be recorded so you can listen to it anytime you want. The advantage of viewing it live is the ability to ask questions and make comments via the live chat.

I will be creating a new Becoming Conscious website whose main focus is how to develop the neural pathways necessary to have a fully functioning sixth sense, while also offering retreat and respite from the chaos of the disintegrating 3D world.

The Spiritual Growth Community website will remain live, but the focus will shift to providing information about how to create a community-living life style that is compatible with your unique preferences.

The Spiritual Growth Community membership activities will transfer to the Becoming Conscious site. I have already made a major addition to the membership benefits—I now do daily energy transmissions to members that will help them be in alignment with the cosmic forces that are fueling the transition to 4D.

In February the monthly membership fee will be raised from the current $47 a month to $97 a month to reflect the commitment I am making for the daily, 7 days a week, energy transmissions. Current members, and those who join before February 1st, will remain at $47 a month. Charter members will retain their  $39 a month fee. Geez, what a deal!

BOTTOM LINE: 2011 is going to be a year of rapid change. Being able to change direction at a moments notice is a skill worth developing. And having no requirement that things be a certain way, often called having no attachment to the outcome, will go a long way to successfully “surfing the chaos and navigating the flow(sm)” of this evolutionary leap with more confidence, less fear, more joy and less struggle. And, hey . . . who wouldn’t want that!

TIP: Check out the Awakening Your Light Body class that starts April 16th. It is a fast track to developing the neural pathways necessary to support a fully functioning sixth sense that is the foundation of natural knowingness.

P.S. I’ll be re-framing the title of the Light Body class to something like Creating Neural Pathways to Expand Your Consciousness through the Awakening Your Light Body Course to make it less mysterious and more accessible to ordinary people like me who can get put off by esoteric mumbo jumbo. If you read my book Becoming Conscious: One Woman’s Story of Spiritual Awakening you know that I was highly skeptical for years and years (and still am in a lot of ways!).

If you’ve been experiencing rapid change and seeing things in a new way I’d love to hear from you. Just click below on comments or email me: Jennifer@SpiritualGrowthCommunity.com

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The Positive Value of Negative Thoughts & Feelings

December 22nd, 2010 by Jennifer Grainger

I saw a photo of my friends, Susana and Richard on Facebook when I went in to wish Richard a Happy Birthday last Thursday. Wow! They looked so fabulous, so happy, so vibrant and obviously flourishing in their new Hawaii location.

But the oddest thing happened. I noticed a shift in my energy that went down scale just a tiny bit. Probably a year or two ago I wouldn’t have even noticed it as it was happening. It probably would have percolated below the surface of my awareness and eventually shown up as me being in a “bad mood” or “funk” for no apparent reason.

I wondered if it was jealousy I was feeling. No, jealousy is the fear of losing something I already have. It felt more likely envy, wanting what someone else has that I don’t have. Was I envious because Susana has a mate that is on the spiritual growth path with her and I don’t? Or that doors are opening for her in ways they are not opening for me right now as I sit in retreat, regroup and reinvent mode? Was I envious of her youth and beauty? Much as I hated to admit it, it could have been any, or all of those things.

Digging deeper, I asked myself, “When have I felt this way before?” because I know that anytime I get emotionally “triggered” there is some pocket of unresolved emotional trauma that’s been activated. I wondered, “what pattern is being replicated here?” I filed the unanswered question in the pondering section of my brain and went to bed.

I awoke at 3 a.m. and it was totally clear what the photo had activated in me. Here was the gold . . . the positive value this negative feeling of envy was giving me.

I “saw” a very clear picture of me as a small child. Lonely and unloved. I am seeing my parents hugging and kissing and totally ignoring me, as if I were invisible, I am without emotion, observing the scene like an impartial journalist simply reporting what’s happening. I see I am completely separated from my parents. I am an outsider looking in. I’m wanting them to notice me, because if they notice me then that means I am OK.

“Oh,” I thought, “why did I never see before how unimportant it is that others see me and acknowledge me? I’ve been barking up the wrong tree all my life looking outside of myself for validation of my worth, when my worthiness is a given. It is a given for every person. There is nothing I have to do to be worthy or to prove my worthiness. What a futile journey this has been.”

In a very matter-of-fact way my guide told me that I was now ready to become self-validating. Yes, I could clearly see that. He explained that now that I could see that every event is the result of matching energy vibrations that emanate from within me, I am the only valid authority that can determine whether I am aligned with life or not. No one outside of me can know what is right for me better than I can know it for myself. I have all the skills necessary to navigate life. I can trust my inner compass that lets me know when I am in alignment, and when I am not. And I have all the tools I need to get realigned when I am off track. I have no need for anyone’s approval, acceptance or acknowledgment to feel OK about myself. Wow!

With this realization I was flooded with that “peace that passes understanding.” I fumbled for the lamp switch so I could see to write this down. I knew from past experience that although the enlightenment would stay with me, I wouldn’t remember the details, and I needed to remember the details so I could tell YOU! That’s my job, man!

There is still a lot of work to do. Knowing that there is gold to be mined by dissecting negative thoughts and feelings to get to the root of a false belief, and diligently doing the work are two entirely different things!

But no worries . . . if we won’t do the work, if we are satisfied to blame someone or something outside of ourselves as the cause of our discomfort, the Universe will do the work for us. Trust me. It is a lot less painful to step out of victim consciousness and do the work ourselves! Being drug through a knothole backwards to strip us of baggage that we refuse to let go of is not a walk in the park, for sure! Take my advice: stay ahead of the game by paying attention to when you are out of the flow, or you might call it being “off center,” or grumpy, or cranky. Take it as a sign that there is some false belief you need to let go of, take full responsibility for dealing with it, then get busy.

If you don’t know what to do, reach out for help! Call me for a coaching session, which will include a channeling or guided meditation that you can listen to over and over. Or contact one of the practitioners listed on the Spiritual Growth Community website.

Or if you know what to do, but are in too much overwhelm to pull it together, get help! I do! These are extremely challenging times. We are clearing lifetimes of garbage from our energetic systems. We will each need help from time to time.

My guides have told me that while 2010 was the Year of Light in which there would be no more secrets, 2011 will be the Year of Clearing in which we must clean the slate in order to be in alignment with the increased frequency vibration that is currently down pouring on the planet, and which will accelerate to tsunami proportions in 2011!

BOTTOM LINE: Just as there are many stages of physical growth—infant, toddler, child, teenager, young adult, middle-aged adult, senior adult—each stage (hopefully) building on the next (I’m sure you know a few people in arrested development that, although they have aged, they have not “grown up” very much), there are also many stages of consciousness growth.

Forty plus years ago there was no awareness that our thoughts were creating our reality. As that became mainstream we worked to learn ways to change our thoughts to create more harmony, joy and peace in our lives. It has been a good thing. We have expanded our awareness of what goes on in our monkey-minds. We have learned many ways to take charge of the unpleasant effects of “negative” thinking.

This has taken us to the “young adult” stage of consciousness expansion. And there is way more growing for us to do! We are shifting from old paradigm “human doings” to new paradigm “human beings.”  Each step along the way is a source of more Joy and less struggle in our daily lives. Now, instead of trying to get rid of our negative thoughts and emotions, we can use them to accelerate our growth. They are pointers that can guide us to uncover false beliefs and hidden traumas that must be cleared in order for us to live 5th dimensionally, that is, in joy, peace and harmony.

TIP: Recurring “negative” patterns in your life are a BIG clue that there is work to do. Getting beyond blaming people or life for what is showing us in our lives (transcending victim consciousness) is a basic step. As long as we are seeing the source of our experience as outside of ourselves we are powerless to make changes. That makes us victims of life. Not everyone wants to do the work necessary to take back their power. It is so much easier to be the victim, but not very rewarding or fun!

P.S. Now more than ever we must be walking our talk. We start by believing that the Universe is friendly and that everything that happens is for our highest good. Until the believing becomes a knowing, we are just talking heads! And believing becomes knowing by walking your talk until that moment arrives when grace descends upon you and the belief moves from your head to your heart, where it becomes knowing. Hallelujah when that day arrives! In the meantime you gotta just keep on truckin’!

P.P.S. The more you hang around other pioneering souls on the path of conscious evolution, the more you will see the many blessings that arise from the ashes of apparent disaster, the easier it is to trust, and the faster you will grow! As Ascended Master Maha Cohan said in his message to the Spiritual Growth Community members in our last teleclass “find someone who is walking their talk and follow in their footsteps until you get the hang of walking your talk. Once your believing becomes knowing then you can strike out on your own and make the way for others to follow you.”

How are you experiencing the rapid changes? I want to hear from you! Click on the comments link below to leave your thoughts, insights and experiences.

Until next time . . .

Love and light,


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I’ve Had My Emotional Meltdown. How About You?

December 15th, 2010 by Jennifer Grainger

Sorry for missing last Wednesday’s publication date for this newsletter, but I was going through a major, no kidding, emotional meltdown, and couldn’t make myself do anything I was “supposed” to.

I’d felt the meltdown coming on . . . you know the symptoms . . . frustration at the obstacles popping up everywhere with no end in sight . . . feelings of helplessness . . . thoughts of “what will become of me?”  Yes. Definitely a meltdown was in the making.

Being enlightened as I am, I thought, “OK, I’m heading into a breakdown, which always results in a breakthrough, but why go through all that 3D drama? I’m enlightened now so I’m  gonna’ skip the breakdown and go directly for the insights and expanded consciousness that come with the breakthrough.”

Apparently the level of enlightenment I have achieved does not include a free pass in the breakdown department because before you could say “someone call the looney bin and arrange for a pick up,” I was in a full blown hysteria.

“You’re hysterical . . . just stop it,” I said firmly, and uselessly, as I threw myself on my bed crying until I could barely breathe.

(Just so you know, when a deeply held emotional trauma gets activated, there is no stopping the explosion of escaping emotion, so don’t feel bad if this very same thing happens to you or someone you know!)

Anyway, suddenly I “saw” myself at birth, and vividly saw that I’d been born into a void that I’ve spent my whole life attempting to fill. All I have ever wanted was to love and be loved by one special person . . . namely my soul mate. This desire has gone unfulfilled despite my best, most concerted “Law of Attraction” efforts, and from this meltdown perspective, would never be filled.

Then the scene shifted to an incident that happened when I was ten. I “saw” how my soul had shattered during that event . . . literally, I saw multiple silhouetted figures scatter in all directions.

Recognizing that I was totally and seriously losing it, I called out to the Universe for help and that is when the breakthrough began . . .

Ascended Master Maha Chohan appeared to me (in my inner vision). I was immediately flooded with the most exquisite feelings of safety and peace that could only be unconditional love. Beings of light surrounded me as I floated in the cocoon of bliss, while I integrated the enormity of having carried the experience of being born into a void, never connecting anywhere.

It was a “wow” experience to clearly see how that lack of connection with life has been at the root of my lifelong recurring pattern of not being able to connect at a deep level with a partner. I was engulfed with a feeling of deep compassion for myself for the fruitlessness of all my efforts.

Next I found myself hovering high above a scene that could have been Grand Central Station. The people were gravitating towards the center, creating a hub. In the next instant I was at the center of the hub. I literally heard a “click,” like a seat belt fastening, as each silhouette joined the hub, one at a time, until all the pieces were back. Each click, securely fastening the returning part to myself, generated a deep sigh of relief.

Then Maha Chohan psychically connected me to him and the Source of all life, and pulled me through a portal of light. I no longer felt lost and alone. I had come out the other side purged of deep, emotional baggage, likely preparing me for the growth 2011 would bring. My breakthrough was complete.

I fell asleep, and when I woke in the early dawn, bits of understanding began coming into focus.

I have absolute knowing that I can count on Maha Chohan to be with me on my journey of evolutionary transition to 5th dimensional living. I also know he will be with me as I help others make their transition out of the trauma/drama of 3D “reality” and into the 5th dimension where joy abounds and living On Purpose is the order of the day.

Today, I feel brand new. I am looking forward to 2011 as the year of stepping into the leadership role I have been resisting, writing my next book, and continuing to develop my relationship with Maha Chohan, all of which feels way more satisfying and easier than an “earth bound” relationship any day!

BOTTOM LINE: Just like rain falls on everyone, the impulse to evolve is impacting everyone whether they are consciously on the path of awakening or not. If you get triggered beyond your ability to work through it on your own, don’t hesitate to call for help. The experience of being stripped of emotional baggage in order to fit through the portal of light can be a painful process, but oh so worth it!

TIP: If you don’t already have a few healers on your list of people to turn to in a spiritual crisis be sure to check out the Spiritual Growth Community Practitioner’s Directory. Don’t wait until you are in crisis to begin a relationship with a practitioner.

P.S. If you are confronted with a person who is responding “irrationally” to a situation, be sure to cut them some slack and do your best to hold an energetic healing space for them as they act out the emotional trauma that has been triggered and is being released.

P.P.S. Take good care of yourself. Get plenty of rest, eat right and avoid cantankerous people whenever possible! Not everyone is willing to let go of the baggage in order to make it through the portal of light. Their resistance won’t be fun to be around.

Have you or someone you know had a meltdown recently? How did it get handled? Or didn’t it?  I’d love to from you! Click on the Comments icon below to add your thoughts on the subject.

Love and light,


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